I have questioned myself several times on if I should really write this but I feel like God keeps pushing me to write this. Its my personal story and journey that I am going through. If we are really honest with ourselves, I know I’m not the only person who has questioned myself if I was drinking too much. I wouldn’t call myself an alcoholic or anything but honestly it use to be a problem. I am not about to blame anyone or anything, I did it to myself. However, when did drinking become the “Cool thing” to do?
I grew up in Louisiana, where everything revolved around drinking. I mean EVERYTHING! Your watching football.. your drinking, cooking.. your drinking, eating crawfish… your drinking, have friends over… your drinking, going to dinner… your drinking. You get my point. I’m a mom of A LOT of kids.. some my own and some we foster. I loved to have a glass of wine at the end of the day just to unwind from the day.. relax a little. Well, that started to become a “thing”. One glass here.. one glass there… before you know it, there went the bottle. Now, this didn’t just happen over night, this happened over months, years.
Now, I know some of you are thinking… so… there isn’t anything wrong with that as long as its not all the time. Well… if we are being honest with ourselves. Its way more than we let on. I mean… no one knew how much I drank. I called myself a “closet drinker” cause I drank at home when no one was around. I kept telling myself that it was ok because I wasn’t getting drunk. Isn’t that what the Bible says anyway.. Not to be drunk? So as long as you don’t get drunk, your fine. Right? WRONG!
God kept convicting me that I needed to stop drinking. Not to relax, not socially, not anytime. Honestly, I fought God on this because.. lets face it… drinking can be relaxing and fun. My God doesn’t give up… EVER! He kept on and kept on. The closer I got to God, the more I realized why drinking is so wrong. Even just 1 drink!
The world has made drinking out to be something its not. I see ads with moms taking a bubble bath while drinking wine, just to relax. You know whats wrong with that ad and what was wrong with me? The mom in the ad, myself and many other moms and dads…. we are using alcohol to relax us instead of running to God to relax us. What?? I know what your thinking, ” Ambra, really… wine isn’t that bad!”. God doesn’t want us to do anything… I mean anything that takes His place. He is Peace, He is Joy, He is Love, He is everything that alcohol isn’t. When I fully understood that I was using wine, alcohol, to give me what God could. I stopped completely. Its been 4 months since I have tasted any kind of alcohol. Now I know that might not mean much to anyone but that’s 4 months that God has given me all the Peace, relaxation, joy and fun that I have ever needed.
So, listen up. Stop listening to the world. Stop believing that its ok to drink occasionally or socially like I did. Its not. Pray about. Listen to what God is telling you. This post isn’t to judge anyone but to reach those who might be in the same boat as I was. I’m not anti-social .. Actually, I’m more social now then I have ever been. I still hang out with people who do drink and I’m ok with it.. no judgement. Your walk with God, is your walk with God.
But lets me honest with ourselves for a change.
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